Tuesday

Something I've learned is, your dream job is never a good dream. It turns out to be fourteen hours a week, making hardly any money and working under an incompetent manager.
That just because you admire someone, doesn't mean they admire you back, they pretend to be your friend, but then ignore you when it counts.
That just because you love him, doesn't mean it can work out. Things don't always work out. That when you finally put yourself out there, people don't always accept it. You just come off as overbearing and weird.
That sometimes Tuesday's turn out like Mondays should. And they just suck.
That being an adult is not fun. Or enjoyable, it is just stressful,
That for some people, dreams are just dreams. And nothing extraordinary ever happens to them.
That even though you go out of your way to make someone happy, doesn't meant they'll do the same for you.
That even though all you want is forgiveness, all you get is reminders of what you've done and bitter remarks that make you feel like dirt.
That its really hard not to let your own problems consume you. An overwhelming weight on my chest, that nothing can help.
That everyone is really looking out for number one, that their problems are more important that helping you.

Today is one of those overwhelming days. Where I forget Gods blessings and all He has done in my life. And I wallow in self-pity. When Satans attacks are too much and I give into my own selfishness, because I feel like my problems are too much to bear.
I know my problems are teeny tiny, and there is more important things to worry about. But I'm only human, and I can't do this on my own.

"God is within her, she will not fail"

Goals

My goal is to enter the gates of Heaven and hear the words " well done, good and faithful servant" to know that I lived a faithful life, and everything will have been worth it.
My goal is to love and be loved. To heal and mend the broken.
To appreciate the beauty of people, sunsets, coffee and anything else God puts in my path. To realize the power and authority of a faithful God.
I wish to live a life of genuine faith. So people would see Him, instead of me. To live in true humility.
These are my goals. And if I accomplished nothing but these goals, I could not be more joyful.
Sometimes I forget my priorities. And my focus gets foggy. But ultimately, my goals are these and love.
Take me where love is needed, even if it's next door.


"Man is like a breath; his days are like a passing shadow" Psalm 144:4

Unity

                                                      

"Behold how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!"

                                                   Psalm 133:1 

How often are we willing to talk to people we don't know. Even to people that don't go to our church? Modern Christianity hears the word church and automatically think of the building we meet in on Sunday mornings. But the word church to God means His people.. We are the body of Christ. 

And the body cannot work without all of its members. We're so hesitant to go outside of ourselves and I know this as well as anyone. We keep to ourselves, often far from people, keeping to our own beliefs. Keeping the gift we have to ourselves. 

Ultimately we need to be interdependent. Working together. 

We're all members of the body of Christ. Does the arm have the same function as an eye? No. One of the biggest mistakes we make is assuming we all have the same duties. But if we're all doing the same things, how can the body function properly? 

" from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edification of itself in love." 

                                              Ephesians 4:16 

Gods will requires all of its members working in required form. Some of us are meant for greatness. And sometimes all this world needs is goodness. Goodness in a grocery store, in a coffee shop, in a friendship. 

Some of His people are meant for great struggles overseas, to see the broken and to help them without a second thought. 

Some are meant to live for greatness where they are put. Living for God in the most ordinary ways. We need Christians everywhere doing the work of God, ultimately working together whatever their duty is. 

This is by no means a way to make excuses for ourselves. Passion isn't just in missions. Sometimes your mission is right where you're put. And sometimes it's completely not. But whatever part you play in the body of Christ needs to be filled with passion. A radical love for the God we do all of this for. Complete devotion and willingness to flourish where God puts you.  Openness to being placed where you never thought possible. Doing things you never wanted to do. God will use your skills and tendencies, but He will also put you completely out of your comfort zone and use you through your weakness. 

We make the mistake of assuming we can predict the next move of God. He may never change, but we can never be sure of how He will use us throughout our entire life. 

He will use every member of His church. All working together for perfect will of God. Unity is important. Living for encouragement of our brothers and sisters. We are responsible for the souls of ourselves. We can no longer live for ourselves alone. 

" let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification that it may impart grace to the hearers." 

                                                                        Ephesians 4:29