The Humble Servant

    "No one is good there is not even one. The front pages of papers of children
     raped by rapists Iraqi torture chambers and we to blame claim we're blameless.
     Wrong. All."

Once upon a time I wrote a speech called "Christian Courtship vs. Dating" and looking back at this, im not the proudest. In fact....Im ashamed of it.
To be fair, this was years and years ago. And I was ignorant. I was zealous without wisdom. And I was anything but humble. I was a judgmental little thirteen year old, who thought she knew everything, but in reality knew nothing.
Years later, I would learn that Satan would use this very same pride that I had, against me... And then God would rescue me from this darkness. The very thing I judged people on became my own struggle.
I had to learn a hard, painful lesson. Things like these should never between you and the world or other people. Things like these always need to be between you and God. Dont put yourself on a little pedestal and say, look at me I dress modestly, I must be better than you. Or look at me, Im not kissing till i get married, I havent made dumb mistakes like you, I must be better than you. Its fine if you want to do that.... dress modestly and wait till marriage i mean, but it never needs to be bragged on. And people like me learn the hard way. I thought I was safe. I was strong enough to resist what others dealt with, because I had a strong foundation. But this is where I went wrong. Confidence in my upbringing, in myself... Where my confidence needed to be in God.

     "And swelling up inside of us, there's this pride in us this arrogance and our only line
      of defense is the sense that I'm not half as bad as this friend of mine, so I must be fine."

Every human has used this defense. To make ourselves feel better about our own sin, we judge those around us. But this sin will catch up with us eventually...

How DARE we assume we're any better than another? As Christians we should be realizing our wretchedness and falling on our own face in humility.

    "No one is good, no not one..."

And the only Man ever to be good, the One who could've glorified Himself and ruled over kingdoms, humbled Himself to be a servant of others. He hung out with cheats, tax collectors, and whores.

In my speech I gave The Chair analogy. Where someone stands on a chair and tries to pull someone up onto the chair with them. And they can't...But them the one standing on the floor pulls the one on the chair down to their level with ease. Understand the analogy?

The dirty rotten sinner is the one on the ground... and the holy man is on the chair. And we mustn't be around the sinner because they will easily pull us down.

EXCUSE me. Joannah! Are you proclaiming that you're better than the one on the ground?!

NO. We as children of God should be serving on our face. Humble to the point of washing the whores feet. You can't fall... when you're already on your face, serving.

Which reminds me... I recently started a job as a waitress.. and it has changed my perspective on so much. Its a humbling experience. It makes me examine my own life and desire to be better...who would have thought that serving would bring humility.

Just a little food for thought.

    "It is done for you and bought with blood. Accept. Rejoice. For freedom has come."

                                                                             The Benediction, Jimmy Needham

    "The great characteristic of a saint is humility- yes, all of those things and other evils would have been manifested in me but for the grace of God, therefore I have no right to judge."

                                                                                        Oswald Chambers